choking on a dream… listening loudly to a silent Scream....

Massacare.. blood... chaos... crowd... trepidation... panic... Death... loneliness...

she woke up with a start... she had broken into a cold sweat..the air conditioner was working fine... may be she shud decrease the temperature..  she couldnt explain her anxiety... she suddenly felt frightened and lonely... may be she shud drink some water... that meant she had to cross the dark corridors to reach the kitchen...she chastized herself for not bringing a glass of water to the bed,before she slept...

she turned to her left.. he was sleeping peacefully... may be he was tired... he had no idea that she was terrified at this dearth of nite... may be he had a hard day at work and may face another big day tomm.. he was deep into sleep.. may be he took his sleeping pill again to ward of his back ache... may be she should wake him up...may be not... he slept like a baby...

her eyes fell on the thick gold chain around his neck... she often felt stifled when ever she saw that chain... he had started wearing that chain from their marriage day.. may be even before that.. may be when they had started their courtship... may be may be... he always stopped her from touching it...it was a forbidden object to her... he never took it off... he got fidgety whenevr she tried it take it off from him playfully..

tonight the curiosity got better of her... maybe it was given to him by someone special... she jogged her memory to remember if that was a wedding gift.. may be one of his friend's gifted him... she couldn't remember... she fingered the chain...it felt cold against her finger... she held it btw her fingers... it was thick, no doubt... it weighed heavy..

she let her fingers move on the length of the chain.. may be he will wake up.. may be he will catch her intruding on this space... may be not... her fingers came to rest on a heart shaped locket... she noticed it for the first time.. she hadnt noticed it before.. not in their frenzied moments of making out.. not in their lazy moments of lying side by side all limbs entangled up... may be she chose not to notice...

may be this was his secret...may be this contained the photo of his childhood sweet heart.. may be the girl he liked in his college days... may be someone from his office... may be not..ma be a picture of his fav god.. my be his parents..may be not... may be.. may be not...

she thought of opening it.. then she decided against it.. after all it was his secret... but then she was terrified tonight... she wanted something to take her mind off from that terrible dream... she weighed the locket against her palm.. it was feather light..sure it would open to reveal his darkest secrets... she ran her nail along the rim of the locket... the catch nudged her skin... she lightly opened it... may be she shouldnt..may be he will find out.. may be they will break into first of the many fights to follow... may she shud....

she opened the locket gingerly... the left side revealed a smiling him... she had captured him in that glorious smile..they had been laughing over their morning coffee.. she smiled to herself... she felt apprehensive to look on the right side.. may be shudnt..may be she shud stop peering and close the locket.. she couldnt bring herself to look further... she didnt want her dreams to shatter... but tonight she wanted to be sure...

she felt antsy..may she shud go get that glass of water... she nervously looked over... she broke into a sigh of relief... she wont need that glass of water any more tonight..may be tomm she will remember to get that glass before she retired to bed.. but tonight she ll sleep re-assured... she snuggled beside him and slept off instantly..

cause she know it was she who smiled back from that right side... she in her naughty moods goofing around wearing only his shirt... Tonight she feels warm...