To my Dearest...

Hi luv...

Hope this letter finds u in blooming health and heart... i can't say all's well at my side as it is not...

i dunno why but during my pre-teen days, i hated even to talk abt u... wen ever somebody mentioned abt my life partner they wr met by an angry stare from this rat... i always maintained that i ll never leave my parents... i promised to myself that wat-ever happened i wont fall in love... but somewr something changed..

during my teen years, i started seeing u evrywr and in everyone.. i searched for u, at highs and lows... i was a nerd then confined to my books and music... wen i didnt meet u , i tot u frequented Markets, Malls and theaters rather than bookstores and libraries.. i chided myself for this, but didnt venture into these places for the fear of being laughed at... i was unlucky, i said to myself...

wen i joined college, i really expected to meet u there... may be as a classmate or as college mate... initial college days saw me hiding behind books in library and nose deep into some online journals at the college net cafe.. but the ugly Mice transformed into a beautiful Rat sometime in btw... i had my own share of friends and gangs.. i started visiting Malls, Beaches, Markets and even Temples.. i even watched a movie almost after a decade... i engaged into stupid talks with fellow girls just in hope that i ll find u, all in vain...

my 4 years of college passed without meeting u..but there wasnt a single day that went without ur tots... whenever something happ gud or bad , i wished if only u wr there to share it with me... whenever i jumped with joy, i wanted u to pull me down from the ninth cloud.. whenever i shed a tear of worry,i hoped u ll hug me tight and say "everything ll be alright dear"...wen i won so many awards at college,state and national level i wished u wr somewr in d crowd proudly saying everyone who wud here that "She is my gal"... All in vain...

i graduated and joined this corporate world... the stress has huge as i joined the rat race to run up d corporate ladder... i did everything to reach my current position - work hard, stay up late, follow every word of my boss, out perform everyone, everything that i cud... but i forgot abt u.. i stopped searching for u... i boasted around proudly that being single rocks..

i think,i was wrong... coz since d past 3 months i am yearning for u... no i am not searching for u... i am just pining for u - to meet u - to hold ur hands - to say that "i love u"... i am just longing for u - to hug u - to beam at u - to say that "u really matter"... i am yearning for ur bear hug, wen there is a nip in air... i am craving for ur naughty kiss wen i do something mischievous...

i want u there wen i bitch abt all at work and world...i want u there and say "u look awesome" wen i get that new pair of shoe and boast off abt it... i want u there wen my parents are in town and want to see me in secure hands.. i want u there wen my friends hang out for a movie or dinner... i want u there wen i ball into my fetal position not knowing wat happ to me...

i promise, baby... i promise that i ll be there for u all time... i wont come btw u and ur cricket/soccer/rugby/hockey/tennis matches and nag u to pay attention to me.. i may even get u that bowl of chips... i wont demand u spend every day with me... u can continue ur boys day out like u do now..i wont get cross if u drink on special occasions, but spare me from cigarette smoke.. i just cant stand it, luv... i ll cook all ur fav dishes but dont ask me to wash ur dirty socks, we can fix a maid for that...

Forgive me, my love... forgive me if i am cross with u sometimes, just that my hormones are going awry and i dont feel like being myself sometimes... forgive me wen i demand to have that Chocolate icecream at midnight.. my craving for food strikes at oddest time, i ll rather be happy if u stock our fridge with these stuff... forgive me sweetest, if i forget to call up and say "Luv u" at mid-day.. just that i got caught up with this stupid deadline and forget even abt myself...

and wen we get kids, we will bring them up as a mixture of us both.. u can teach them all those video games and outdoor sports..  i ll surely make sure that they excel in dancing, painting and language... i ll even take ur help in all these... and wen they grow up and wanna leave us, i promise u dearest, i ll be by ur side wen u shed that little secret drop of tear...

DEarest... whrever u r, rest assured, coz i am here waiting for u... and i promise to be for there u wat ever happens... i ll get u those warm pads wen u are down with cold... i ll get u nice chilled tall glass of lemonade wen u return tired from office(if i am there at home)... and u need not be worried abt handling that odd relations who drop in now and then.. i ll manage them with my sweetest smile for sure , baby...

DArling.. enuf is enuf.. the distance is already damaging me.. come here.. come now...  and if u are reading this by any chance please drop in a mail... :-) missing u badly...

if only u know how much i miss u, u ll be here by my side this very second... i wait for u thru evry ebb and low...

Yours Forever,

D Rat...

P.S # to all those who want to say "Singles Rock" or anything to that effect, u r banned from this post.. run of somewr else.. :-)