the best way to end a year...

and welcome a new one, is this.....

A Romance :

          Megha sneezed as the shoe-box slipped out of her hand.. she was in the store room sorting out stuff for new year celebrations... she leafed thru the several photos that spilled out.. taken during her college days each had its own memory attached... one of those showed her fooling around with Chetan.. Her first love at college... a jester, understanding guy whom she trusted like hell...they wud sit around for hours and talk nonsense..they flirted around without guilt and talked about future plans...they planned for a life time together...
          But then she joined a MNC after college.. thats where she met Ashwin, who swept her off her feet... a hunk he was, knew the rite words to say and always had a mischievous smile playing on his face... a heart throb for many girls, he was d most eligible bachelor...

 "MEGHA!!" the voice called from the hall, "are u still there alive or shud i inform your parents???" 

she started laughing as she came out and hugged her husband.. she always knew she did the right thing by choosing Chetan.... "Happy New Year"

A Free Verse :
there goes one...
making away for another..
no guilt, no regrets...
no strings attached..
or any thoughts scratched...
just another new one..
to completely relish and enjoy...

Welcome 2009, we are gonna rock together...

A Text:
Every year is a complete package in itself to me...  2003 taught me to cry.. 2004 made me strong.. 2006 caused me laugh a lot... 2007 made me realize i can hate someone with all my heart... 2008 was an eye opener by itself... i learnt, i sustained, i gathered and i lost...   Now i wait for 2009... lets see wat this Pandora has in her Box....

A Card:

Hmm now wat?? may be

A Click:

click cluck shluck...

See u on d flip side folks.... Party on...

d stupid rat, rams and goes splat...

In a haze..
u walk in a daze..
jacket to be dry-cleaned...
to get it preened...
the door wide open...
it stands like a wanton...

little did i know that it was Saint Gobain....

Ratzzzz..... now i am a hanuman sans d tail... mafia sans d gun... :-(

last 2 months has proven to be ill-luck for me.. first the knee injury, followed by an operation on kidney and now a swollen face, even if its just d left side... yuckkk.... my boss wishes me a eventless new year... fingers crossed i hope for the same... :-|

wen exactly do u realise...

that this is exactly wat is called d "extreme pain"?????

that "Enuf is enuf"??

that u have to move on????

A year that was....

                  i tot of doing a year end round-up... but that sounded too cheerful to post... :-P somewr in d middle of the year i stopped being pathetic and started being more cheerful.. thanks to blogging, dance classes, 12 hrs working schedule and some really cool friends, i was way too busy and happy about that..Yr 2007 end saw me cribbing about being alone and lonely.. not any more.. coz i dont care anymore...

                 two stays at hospital showed me who really cared and who didnt... i dint eliminate or stayed away those who didnt.. but i learnt whom to worry abt and whom not to...

                 @ d work end, i have come of age.. learnt how to handle lot many specimens and lot many situations.. but eventually transformed my empty glass cabin into a lively one mainly thru my smiles and unpretentious laughter..

                 this year saw me laugh mirthlessly,  cry hysterically, jump abt in joy, feel sad and lower than Mariana trench.... this year in short was a complete package... no regrets no looking back... rather i enjoyed this year more than any other past years...

Now all i do is look forward towards yr 2009... let it bring more happiness, more peace, more love into every one's life...

I wish....

... i wouldn't work on Holidays..  Its Christmas and i am still stuck in office... i just wanna run home and indulge myself in some awesome Christmas Cakes... Oh my luck....

in btw something i wrote yday on Stick man's request.. honestly speaking, i didnt like it.. but dunno y, stick man loved it...

A reason to smile...
A reason to celebrate...
A season for love...
A season to be loved,

Cakes and puddings..
Pines and Jewels...
gifts to be opened..
feast to be served...

Happiness and Optimism...
Everything connected to Christmas..

:-) ending with a wish from Mr. & Mrs. Claus... MERRY ChriSTmaS everyone...

Ten things u can expect from ur best Friend...

10. Listen to u patiently even wen u are bickering crap and he doesnt understand a single word of wat u are talking...

9. Write sweet little texts in your mother tongue and stun u at d middle of night...even wen he doesnt know more than saying hi and hello in your language..

8. Say i can't meet u but end up being with u more than his guy friends and family during home town visits...

7. Send u your favourite stuff from ur native even before u ask...

6. Know all ur schedules and activities and remind u, eventually leave u wondering "How did he know that??"...

5. Call u up @ 11 30 on ur bday nite and talk for half an hour just because he doesn't want anyone else wish u @ 12...

4. Understand something is wrong if he doesn't get a text for some 2 hrs and text u something stupidly sweet , making u smile...

3. Talk u out of your pain when u are seriously suffering..

2. Read ur mind and snatch words from ur mouth even wen u r hundreds of miles away and hardly meet...

1. Just be there for u, no matter wat time, wat place, wat situation and who is present...

This is for u, Wookie... ur Christmas gift... Thanks buddy.. as i said u before "wat ll i do without u??"... u made me believe in Friendship... u proved friendship doesn't means meeting each other and being there physically...   U proved relations are made without seeing each other..

Jab tak tu hai mere saath, everything will be alright...

Hearts, Love, Strawberry, Gerbra...

wat comes to ur mind wen u hear the word REd??

well.. i got this random tot as i was typing away a document today ... i updated that as my Gtalk and orkut status msg, immediately... i texted it to quite a few... well twittered it too...

the result... drum rolls please...

in First position came: Blood...

actually i expected this... some said the reason of recent Mumbai terror and with some it was quite obvious given he is a doctor... another person reasoned it was because of my post below..

came close behind in second position: Rose...

he he he... i wont say no to a red rose anytime....

other answers wr:
3. Santa, Christmas... this reminds me that i dont have an off for Christmas day... ... move over, i even have a major presentation on Christmas day.. great just great..

4. Anger... hmmm.. ya, my friend gets red in face wen he is angry... scarlet red is d exact shade...

5. Color.... well i ll be doomed.. i never knew Red was a color... i tot it was some Utopian chemical waiting to take over the world and turn it into Krypton... Great...

6. Random early detection.... AAAAAaaahhhhh !!!

7. Joker's Nose.... well now this is wat i say out of box thinking.. but one gets to think of common things wen asked a question suddenly...aint i rite???

P.S. # well... this question also made me do a change thats so obvious now... aint it???

choking on a dream… listening loudly to a silent Scream....

Massacare.. blood... chaos... crowd... trepidation... panic... Death... loneliness...

she woke up with a start... she had broken into a cold sweat..the air conditioner was working fine... may be she shud decrease the temperature..  she couldnt explain her anxiety... she suddenly felt frightened and lonely... may be she shud drink some water... that meant she had to cross the dark corridors to reach the kitchen...she chastized herself for not bringing a glass of water to the bed,before she slept...

she turned to her left.. he was sleeping peacefully... may be he was tired... he had no idea that she was terrified at this dearth of nite... may be he had a hard day at work and may face another big day tomm.. he was deep into sleep.. may be he took his sleeping pill again to ward of his back ache... may be she should wake him up...may be not... he slept like a baby...

her eyes fell on the thick gold chain around his neck... she often felt stifled when ever she saw that chain... he had started wearing that chain from their marriage day.. may be even before that.. may be when they had started their courtship... may be may be... he always stopped her from touching it...it was a forbidden object to her... he never took it off... he got fidgety whenevr she tried it take it off from him playfully..

tonight the curiosity got better of her... maybe it was given to him by someone special... she jogged her memory to remember if that was a wedding gift.. may be one of his friend's gifted him... she couldn't remember... she fingered the chain...it felt cold against her finger... she held it btw her fingers... it was thick, no doubt... it weighed heavy..

she let her fingers move on the length of the chain.. may be he will wake up.. may be he will catch her intruding on this space... may be not... her fingers came to rest on a heart shaped locket... she noticed it for the first time.. she hadnt noticed it before.. not in their frenzied moments of making out.. not in their lazy moments of lying side by side all limbs entangled up... may be she chose not to notice...

may be this was his secret...may be this contained the photo of his childhood sweet heart.. may be the girl he liked in his college days... may be someone from his office... may be not..ma be a picture of his fav god.. my be his parents..may be not... may be.. may be not...

she thought of opening it.. then she decided against it.. after all it was his secret... but then she was terrified tonight... she wanted something to take her mind off from that terrible dream... she weighed the locket against her palm.. it was feather light..sure it would open to reveal his darkest secrets... she ran her nail along the rim of the locket... the catch nudged her skin... she lightly opened it... may be she shouldnt..may be he will find out.. may be they will break into first of the many fights to follow... may she shud....

she opened the locket gingerly... the left side revealed a smiling him... she had captured him in that glorious smile..they had been laughing over their morning coffee.. she smiled to herself... she felt apprehensive to look on the right side.. may be shudnt..may be she shud stop peering and close the locket.. she couldnt bring herself to look further... she didnt want her dreams to shatter... but tonight she wanted to be sure...

she felt antsy..may she shud go get that glass of water... she nervously looked over... she broke into a sigh of relief... she wont need that glass of water any more tonight..may be tomm she will remember to get that glass before she retired to bed.. but tonight she ll sleep re-assured... she snuggled beside him and slept off instantly..

cause she know it was she who smiled back from that right side... she in her naughty moods goofing around wearing only his shirt... Tonight she feels warm...

revelations in last 24 hours...

• u know the recession is here to stay, when u see ur dear friend and his car separated :        SA-splutter-taking common office transport-choke on ur carrots... Damn...
• chewing gum relieves ur throbbing head : but not for long.. u spit it out and ur migraine resumes...
• attending a Parent's day function can transfer u back to ur school days : of course its a different issue when the staff categorize u as a school kid and u are too dumbfound to explain...
• cooking in dark can result in a burnt hand and a boiled back : oil and water don't go well with each other.. for the nth time, rmbr it ..
• when u just abandon the idea of eating out, ur maid spoils d food : excess salt in bhajiye, excess salt in dal and excess salt in vegetables is tolerable, but only in separate incidents.. not all at the same time...
• some ppl are so dumb that they expect u to inform them wen u are drugged and muddled up : even if i had full consciousness i would care less to inform these  dimwits.. 
• u discover a feature on ur camera only when a 5 yr old kid naively asks wat it is: ahem and this feature was the one i had been buggering my photographer friend saying its missing in my cam, Nemesis
• when u are tired u can sleep anywr anytime : never mind the hurting bum and swollen forehead..
• when someone smiles at u, just smile back : ur inability to recollect the face doesn't mean that u haven't met before.. just juggle ur mind for those faces completely hidden by face pack and cucumber slices the last time u visited a salon...
  
• d words revelation and relevation are little sticky : that u end up installing dictionary on ur sidebar..                    
  

i can see... i can see ur bright future...

well as a rule i don't believe in horoscopes, Tarot Cards and such stuff...dunno y but i classify them as time wasters... but i always take pleasure in reading my prediction of the day, at the end of the day... More often than not, this makes me laugh out loud wen the prediction and reality coincide...
Well its amazing...
Dec 6th: Party time.. open ur door for flowers and gifts... well everyone knows thats wat exactly happened...
Dec 10th: Take care of our health.. excruating pain to be expected.. Dingbats!! i was taken ill on the same day...
Dec 12th: Expect all your close friends to pay u a visit... you ll remain drowsy and tired.. Sheesh!! this happened for sure..

Wat had me in splits was today's column...
Dec 17th: Extreme Dietary restrictions will make u go on an Eating Spree... he he he...Please someone assure me peas pulao, egg curry, Pineapple juice, a Full bar of Temptation and tablets doesnt mean an eating spree... :P  

Well i think i am gonna sue these ppl for spying on me... he he he he 

its good to be back....

Well... wat to say..
here i am... alive and Kicking... Err.. don't know about the latter part but yeah i am back...

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missed my mail and blog in equal measures.. can't say the same about social network sites.. all my dear friends were near me and at the end of the day its all wat matters... Love came pouring in from unexpected territory and like always the expectations didn't match...

WTF am i writing??? this is supposed to be a fun post... but it doesn't bite to thank a bit u know.... Thank u folks... Esp to SA, Rich & PS...

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and to Rosh... Doctor, u are a GEM... now don't ask me to expand that..

now u got a doctor... then u got a friend.. wat happ wen both coincide.. well.. u laugh thru all ur woes even though ur friendly doctor knows wat u are going thru...

A trailer;
d Rat: Doc.. u can call me an angel now.. i feel like one..
Rosh : Ha HA.. i guess u got one of those fun white gowns..
d Rat: More of a Karate Dress.. whoopee i am a Samurai...
Rosh: Umm..  A white ninja who moves with the stealth of a gazelle.. until u poke her left tummy..Then she turns into a howling Hyena..
d Rat: How about shrieking Banshee??

Well that's that.. his humor and my own Doctors, Jha's and Karnawat's goodwill kept me going thru it...

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 Some more fun with Doctors..

@ IVP testing,
Doc: i am gonna feel ur stomach now... relax and take deep breathes..  Rat, ur stomach is on the softer side..
d Rat: Ummm , Doctor... u are moving upwards.. that's not my stomach..
Doc: #$%^&, ermm sorry  (Loved that shade of red, Ha ha ha ha)..

@ X-ray which involved pillows being tied to my stomach,
d Drugged Rat: in reality first u get preggie, then the delivery pain then u reach heaven, if u are unlucky.., its reverse here.. first i get the pain, then they make me wear white dresses and book me into sterilized heaven/hell and lastly they load my stomach... wow i am an angel and pregnant at the same time...

(retold word-by-word by a friend.. i have no recollection wat so ever)

after getting my diet chart,
d Rat: Why don't u simply say that i shouldn't eat, whatever a normal human being shud eat...

seriously ppl... the list includes fruit juices, vegetable juices, more fruit juices, bitter gourd(belch) and did i mention juice?... it excludes everything else.. :'( 
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trust PS to remember ur fav flower at such times... remember this??  sigh gud things and good guys are always taken...

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it gave me an ample time to read thru the Tin-tin collection MJ gifted me this b'day, the Golden Peanuts collection i got myself and watch Atlantis and Moulin Rouge again.... but eventually i got bored.. it was very unlikely of d Rat to sit at one place or lie down all day long..

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So how was ur week.. missed me anyone???

temporary shut -down of Tantrumzz..

dum da dee dum....

Hospitalized....

out of office.. out of internet.. out of everything for next one week...

my morning surprise...

 

A bloom and a bud... left overnight abandoned... wilting in the dark...smelting in the heat... sucking in the water... waiting for some water... next day dawns.. one dies and one is born....

Thats called "the Circle of Life"

turning 23 in style.....

no post day....

coz..... i have to rush of to a meeting in another 15 min and i am still busy with other work...
coz.... my mind is bogged down with apprehension and i know not wat...
coz.... i have this fleeting felling nibbling me that something is not right...
coz.... i am hearing this soul depressing music since morning and i am not switching it off even if i want to...
coz... coz... coz.....

coz......   its my Buhday tomm... yaay...

 but before i leave.... a one liner i uttered an hour back "For u too be important someone has to be impotent"    now don't ask me why i said this :-P

GRinZzz

this sure doesn't need a title.. or does it????

i have been writing in Hindi for some posters.. ok ok don't shout that i cant to write in Hindi.. but my calligraphy is good and all i have to do is look at the slogans n print them on bigger boards.. only thing is i am not able to get wat d heck i am writing...

DAmnation....

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two days back Y's mom gave me a glass of elaichi Milk (belch) wen we were leaving... now how to explain her that i don't drink milk.. so as a good girl (cough cough cough) i drank up the milk( belch)... it was funny as it had no taste and i tot milk used to be sweet... i sort of felt that i have to stir before drinking yet bottoms uped the whole glass, only to find the whole sugar sedimented at the bottom... Yuck..

More horrors... Adhir rite on cue forwarded this Text to me.. do much for telepathy..

U take a sip of coffee to find it bitter.. too lazy to get to the kitchen to add sugar u just drink up the coffe only to find sugar at the bottom...

 DAang...

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and at the rate i am reading books i may soon end bankrupt...  a book a day is the trend even as i complain i don't get much time.... btw i got myself a grand collection of Peanuts.. and yeah downloaded the complete collection of Calvin and Hobbes... but that wont stop me from buying Calvin and Hobbes-Grand collection the next time i visit Chennai...

also got the Countdown and The Calcutta Chromosome by Amitav Ghosh. Yaay... i am in love with AG...

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was bragging to MJ on the way to lunch today abt some purchase... all i get to hear was...

"You buy everything yourself... then why u want gifts?? leave something to others..."

GRinZzz... any answers..??

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ok chalo i am off to temple now... 

wr u know how d Rat is feeling...

d Rat is ....

• happy coz a friend of hers is selected in preliminary audition for a dance competition
• elated coz another friend gained confidence due to the same audition
• out of d sky coz her advice on relationships worked right to the T for yet another friend who also participated in that audition
• awkward coz she is having a Bad hair day.. thanks to winter energy saving policy of electric board...
• irritated coz she has not yet decided on weekend plan....
• ecstatic coz she got nice shots with her Nemesis yday...
• thrilled coz she found that her city actually feels like a hill station during winter(that is now)...
• idiotic coz she is wearing odd clothes... multi-colored neon stole, black kurta and enzyme washed jeans... thanks again to electric board... Grrrrrrr....
• contented coz she has started cycling again... thanks Doc for the green signal... now all u folks pray that i shudnt hurt my knee AGAIN...
  
• tickled coz she got her new dress yday from d designer and both have come out  nice...
• mirthful coz she is getting new shoes today... (how girlish of d Rat...)
• dejected coz she has no other blog fodder...he he he

:-) GRinZzzz... 

Wr non-stop chatter was wat everybody expected...

i reached the place 20 min before the scheduled time 'coz i tot d place wud be crowded and ppl wont be able to recognize me.... but the food court was empty with only a lovey dopey couple... with time to kill, i borrowed a pen and started scribbling innocuously...

Two guys walked over hesitatingly and asked if i was d Rat... unfortunately i am one... :-P they turned to be Sherkhan and his blog partner Maitili... They informed that a couple of bloggers from Ratlam had left saying it was getting late.. come on it was not even 7 pm, the time fixed and agreed upon... Then i noticed Hussain walk along looking lost... i waved him in.. his excuse "i had never been here"... Tried calling Ashwin and Gunjan.. Gunjan was already on the escalator...

Soon Vaibhav joined us.. Ravi and his non-blogger friend Abhiruchi joined us an hour later...

if i had expected initial hesitation among the guys, there was none.. oh yeah except for Maitili.. but even he started talking animatedly once questioned about his school.... the youngest of us all Maitili is just 19 and writes great stuff in Hindi...


Sherkhan got serious when asked to explain about his choice of subject, Anarchism... it was real heated up discussions but happily enough there was general acceptance of his views..

Gunjan had the spotlight all thru the 2 & 1/2 hour meet.. that was natural coz his recent promotion of being a father and also his interest on Photography...

Hussain's Interest on Graphic Novels & Books had every one speaking up... arey he turned out to be the Son of a famous book stores owner here... hmmm... but wat embarrassed me was, i had met him couple of times at d store but i hadn't recognized him even though we are online buddies for quite sometime now... :-/ sheesh...


Vaibhav chose to be the silent listener talking only needed and emphasizing the widespread acknowledgment one gets if we write really good...


Ravi who was late talked a bit about IIM I.. this got Maitili interested and the had a conspiring talk for the rest of the meet... :-D

The discussions ranged btw Books, Sitcoms, Movies, Operation Cyclone, Politics and Indore, in general... Munching on the Cheese sandwiches, Burgers and btw sips of Coffee nobody noticed the time slipping away... the plan for an hour long meeting extended well beyond 2 hrs... some pics for u...

Some myths associated...

• atleast two believed that i was a guy until the meeting...
• atleast one was skeptical of me given my not so old look....

Some lines that stuck in my mind...

"No booze is not wat boys meets finally spirals down to... its wat the meeting starts with "

"All Booker prize winners are crap. Period"

"If someone from Indore causes terror will u end up destroying the whole Indore ??"

 :-D all in all it was a great meeting.. thank u guyzzz... we rock...

P.S # 1: Thanks to Gunjan for the Refreshments.. boy wr we all starving....
P.S # 2: Thanks to the Food court guy who lent me d pen and went mysteriously absconding...
P.S # 3: i 'll end with a pic of Relative of me who came visiting yday nite, who i finally drove out.,.. Sheesh "how unfriendly this Rat is, ain't I?"

P.S # 4: The official countdown begins... yaay....
P.S # 5: No more Post scripts.. ha ha ha ha