Wats this thing called love???

So!!!

So wat if i am spending my days grinning endlessly?
So wat if there is an added jump in my walk??
So wat if my appetite is back to normal from abyss???

So wat ? So wat?? So wat??? :-)

You know why??? i am in love.. total love.. Eternal love

totally love with ... (Drum Rolls) ARR..

Jai ho!!! Jai HO!! Kaala Kaala Kajal tera , koi kaala jhaadu ....

P.S. # 1 : Rush over to Coffee and Stories... i helped DV put up the current Template... contact me for customized templates :-) am thinking of taking this up as a part time job.. absolute free for Bloggers who follow me :-D i know i know i am that cheap...

 P.S # 2 : Shh.. Ward off Sandoz and Deep... this post is not for u guys to say d Rat is lonely, coz i am not ...

P.S # 3 : Guys.... Deep asked me this question "wat do u mean by love, if u ever loved some1 then u know d meaning also. tell me ur opinion i m waiting for ur answer?"  answer me ppl... ll put together a post on that later...
 

Happy Rat...

Thank you Bill!!

Thanks to Rosh...

Awarded by Dr. Roshan to
d Rat...

       
   Thank u Orchid...

Thanks Phoenix...

 

 Thanks Phoenix and The Pink Orchid...

P.S # all awards to be updated on this page... (just in case i get more...he he he he he he)

Gloriously raise d foot and put in d mouth ...

 Maid: Kholo(Open d door)...
D Rat: (lazily) Wont open... Go away...
Maid: yay... Leave for me... u ll be the one going hungry...
D Rat: (Rushes out to open d door)
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The other day, i had a runny nose and had to leave to a party.. i carried along a couple of tissues in my jean back pocket, just in case... had soiled one, in some 5 min into d party... i started rummaging my back pockets to find the spare one...
oblivious to the crowd staring at me, i said " i am damn sure, i had two of those when i came here first..."
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Ouch!!!! that hurt....

words tumbling out...

i stand at a threshold.. insecure and frightened... my heart had its own questions.. but i find it hard to get d right answers... i have nowhere to go... hope i get a direction..

yday i felt like flying.. but now i find my wings broken.. last month i had set my destination.. but now the road is blocked... i have nowhere to go... hope i get a direction..

the dusk is beautiful..but there follows a dangerous black...the lake looks like melted gold... but its depth darks out me... i have nowhere to go... hope i get a direction..

i wanna fly.. fly high..above the sky...
give back my wings.. remove the trunk from the road..
let it dawn and i will settle for the dreary grey instead of gold!!!


P.S    # started typing watever that cane to my mind... :D
P.S 2 #  The Pink orchid has conferred me an award.. i am all gushing and blushing.. Thanks Girl

My fight with MJ...

 aka How to watch a movie that is not yet released yet in India... (Click to enlarge)

 P.S # Loved "Slumdog Millionaire"

Specimens!!

 why is that i get such and such weird forwards in mail daily...

snake wine???? Whoa.. can i have a shot... ow... wait.. 'll it bite... i hope not.. doesnt it look like jealous.. ha ha ha.. see i am gonna drink u, snake and all u can do is Hiss... Hic.. but no, u are dead.. u cant hiss, but i can hic... :-D

and Aish being conspired against by anti-dalit ppl???.. Roflarious... Man, world has many many specimen but the owner of the blog is a real specimen... i am not able to stop laughing that my stomach is so much in pain...

and yeah me off to Mahakaal tomorrow... going alone but may be a friend ll join later.. :-) hope to have a spiritual time..

If u wanna be with me, Baby, there's price to pay...

Hey u there... Listen!

I am in action...

Enough of your rules!

I have got my own Tools...

:-) had a tough week.. u wud have very well realized that given my lame posts during last 2-3 days... was handling two Training programs not to mention various business meetings and review programs... went into a sort of depression and realized that only when tears started rolling without my knowledge...
its not yet completely over but that's life....

 :-D but wats fun was, i had to attend a training program today instead of conducting one.. it was on NLP... don't ask me wat... a trainer to say u that u need to do stuff, which u are probably doing already in ur life... Lolz... but the best part was ___________(Drum Rolls Plz)_______ the Trainer himself... Jay was completely yumm...

a total eye candy he was, i was drooling over him all along.. not to mention the heavy interaction from my side during the session, given i play the mute Rat usually in such programs... wat added spice was the fact he is a Tamil... Wah!! i was conversing personally in Tamil and others had no clue wat we were talking abt...

He He He... i am so so so  much in love with this guy... Google baba ki Jai.. now i got all details abt him including his Mobile no., address and such there-of...

but Somebody please get him a divorce, first.. you can have his wife, no issues with that... :-D

subha hogayi, Bidu.....

Yay.. Tension-free....i am so happy, even if this is just for the time being...

Ratzzz....

Humor is the only thing that keeps me sane in this in-sane world.Period...

So keep those funny msgs coming in, BabeH

P.S # don't even try to say "this ll to pass away", "its a part of life" or anything such off.. i dont think, u wanna enjoy a month in general hospital.....

Insanely Long tag wr u get to know abt me....

 Before we move on to the main news, the Hit Headline of the Month is that S took back his comment.. his reaction..   

u gotta be kidding.. u blogged that too... i wasnt serious though

Sorry S.. for dragging u till now..  But words are d only things i have.. :-) love u Loads S..

Now the torture, that Saim has imposed on me..

First Name:- The (given my name is The Rat)

Sex:- female, checked and approved

Single or Taken:- Gloriously Single

Birthday:- the black friday of India... 6th of December

Siblings:- a sistaa and a bro

Hair Color:- Some say Black some say brown.. but definitely not salt n pepper

Shoe Size:- 5

Height:- better dont ask.. i am one of those little ppl of Gulliver's Travels

Innie or Outie:- as  the situation prefers.. can be an innie even in a crowd..

What are you wearing right now:- Jean, tee and a jacket.. other censored things are there too..

Righty or Lefty:- Righty

Can you make a dollar in change right now:- Loads of diff btw wat i can and want.. i dont want to, even if i can

Who are your closest friends:- Wookie and Stick Man.. d Gang comes close behind

Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend:- boys and girls who are friends, YEs.. any other ways, No

Best place to go for a date:- Backwaters of Kerala

Favorite place to shop:- Depends on wat i need..

Favorite kind of pants:- Jeans, preferably Bootcuts

Favorite Color:- Sky Blue and Green

Favorite Number:- 6

Favorite Animal:- Rabbit

Favorite Drink:- Orange Juice

Favorite Sport:- Football

Favorite Fast Food Place:- Marybrown.. Missing it terribly here

Favorite Month:- December...

Favorite Movie:- Dasvidhaniya

Favorite Juice:- Orange Juice

Favorite Finger:- Middle :-D for obvious reasons

Favorite Breakfast:- Sandwiches..

Favorite Cartoon Character:- Myself

Have you ever given anyone a bath:- My nephew wen he was a baby.. now the little monster wants to see me drenched in water

Have you ever smoked:- Yup, had a puff once just for the sake... cursed all day after that..

Have you ever bungee jumped:- yup without the rope once from my school first floor.. luckily saved by d sports master

Have you ever made yourself throw up:- Eeeeeeeeeeeeewwwwww

Have you ever gone skinny dipping:- Cant even imagine it

Have you ever eaten a Hot Dog:- Yup... lot many times

Have you ever put your tongue on a frozen pole:- he he he, yes.. i love that frozen feeling..

Have you ever loved someone so much it made you cry:- Yes... Once..

Have you ever broken a bone:- :-D i am not called the Clumsy clutter box without no reason..

Have you ever played "truth or dare":- Yup... Ended up stealing a spoon from a restro..

Have you ever been in a police car:- Luckily No..

Have you ever been on a plane:- In Dreamzz, lot many times

Have you ever been in a sauna:- Yup... But came out in a minute... too hot even for d hottie me..

Have you ever been in a hot tub:- lot many times in last 2 years... Brr i Hate Winters

Have you ever gone swimming in the ocean:- Yes...i hail from such a Glorious place babeH..

Have you ever fallen asleep in school:- i think so.. coz one dear teacher made fun of me for that, wen i was a guest at my school's alumni function once..Talk abt embarrassment

Have you ever run away:- Why ll i??

Have you ever broken someone's heart:- Lot many Hearts.. dont ask any more

Have you ever cried when someone died:- Yes :(

Have you ever cried in school:- Crying!! Never... Was d strong girl who made others cry

Have you ever fallen off your chair:- He he he.. i am d classic example of fallin of the chair laughing heavily..

Have you ever sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call:- He he he.. never was awake beyond 10 or 11 wat ever i tried.. so No is the answer

Have you ever saved emails:- with everyone providing unlimited storage , wHY??

Have you ever fallen for one of your best friends:- Ummm.. Yes...

Have you ever made out with JUST a friend:- i agree with Saim.. too much sleaze..

Have you ever used someone:- i think yes...

Have you ever been cheated on:- Yes.. i was naive before.. not any more

What is your good luck charm:- My smile.. he hehe.. i dont get attached to such things..

What is the best song you have ever heard:- Has to be one.. but it escapes me now..

What is the stupidest thing you have ever done:- i do stupid things on daily basis.. so too many to list..

What's your room like:- Tsunami hit.. Chaos is the only word..

What is the last thing you said:- havent uttered a single word since morning.. joys of being alone, switching of the mobile and bunking the office..

What is beside you:- my mobile, happily latent

What is the last thing you ate:- Egg rice, Steamed corn, Mango slush.. all prepared by me..

What shampoo do you use:- Dove.. is this tag related to some brand promotion?

What is the best thing that happened to you in the past year:- Tantrumzz.com and Wookie

What is the worst thing that happened to you in the past year:- SP

Have you had chicken pox:- No.. Touch wood

Have you had a sore throat:- Every month.. :(

Have you had stitches:- Touch wood again... not yet

Have you had a broken nose:- Touched wood for the third time... he hehehe

Do you believe in love at first site:- havent met a guy to do that magic on me..

Do you like picnics:- Love them

Do you like school:- i think so.. ages since i left

Would you eat a live hamster for $1,000,000:- Run Rat Run.. Saim is aiming for ur blood

What people would you want with you if stuck on an island:- Wookie... (in btw "What ppl"??!! did i read it rite??)

Who was the last person that called you:- Big B.. missed d call though..

Who was the last person you slow-danced with:- JD... sigh..

What makes you laugh the most:- Timing Comedy... :-D wr r u , Dr. Rosh

What makes you smile:- babies, a slight breeze, msg from Wookie and Dr. Rosh, a totful comment..

Who is the last person you yelled at:- JP, my HR mgr

Who is the last person who broke your heart:- P.. dont ask

Who is the last person who told you that they loved you:- V...

Who is your loudest friend:- MJ... he hehehehe.. too loud

Do you like filling these out:- i am aiming for Saim's Blood now...grrr

Do you wear glasses or contacts:- Glasses.. didnt i break them??

Do you like yourself:- Immensely...

Do you get along with your family:- Must... but out of home for 6 long yrs

Have you stolen anything over $50:- How much is that?? lemme get my calculator

Are you obsessive:- abt?? food?? Yuppie...
 
Are you compulsive:- ummm.... No...

Are you anorexic:- Hell no!!!

Are you suicidal:- Murderous Yes!! SAim just wait!!!

Are you schizophrenic:- he hehe.. heavily....

Do you have a crush:- NOW??? umm.. Yup

If so, does he/she know:- Dont think so...

Have you truly told him/her how you feel, face to face:- i say it thrice a day but he ends up inside my stomach every time... so no point saying.. and face 2 face?? he ehehe

What is so great about him/her:- Taste, aroma, the look.. everything.. slurp!! yummm... Hail Chole Batura..

Coffee or Tea:- Tea

Oldest/Middle/Youngest/Only Child:- Middle.... now u know y i love the middle finger

Indoor/Outdoor:- Both

How many people are you sending this:- i say share alike... :-P evil grin

What are you listening to right now:- my heart beat, increasing with every question

What did you do yesterday:- woke up, bathed, went to office, check mailed, made some word docs and presentations, did some work, shouted at a couple of persons, cried in depression, attended a lecture, chatted with few, called up wookie, ate in btw, slept, dreamt...

Where do you want to get married:- actually its a secret.. but  have it planned completely..

What would you change if you could change something about yourself:- my evil short temper

Are you a good driver:- he he he.. other than a bicycle which i touch rarely now, i can claim driving ppl away from me in a insane rate, i think

Are you a good singer:- Yup!! even though the donkeys in d city dont agree so..

What do you dream about:- i rarely remember...

i Tag Vijay, Chriz, Pri, Tony,the pink orchid, Meen, Akilan, Vasu, Dr. Rosh, Santa, Ravi, and every1 else who want to go thru this torture...

heck my hour is up... or is that 3..

the thing i have to change, still....

seems S is serious abt his comment... i further got a msg asking "Don't say u are gonna blog abt my comment too???" he he he he.. now how shud i explain that i already did??

Ok S.... atlast i completely agree with u... i agree that ill stop blogging now...

i ll stop writing those short stories that emerge out of my teeny-weeny brain sometimes.. but promise me u will call up and hear patiently to all those stories... the ones i find worthy to publish.. the ones i find rubbish... all of them... will u dear?


i ll stop ranting abt my daily woes... but u ll have to hear me out... Mind u... i write precisely but cant say the same abt my verbal ability... i am not called d Clumsy Cluttering Chatterbox for no reason...

i ll stop being hyper-enthued abt my victories and joys.. but promise me to hold me down to earth wen such things happen...

Will you... wen u promise and say Yes to all these... then surely, Dear S, ill stop blogging and start wat ever u wanna me do...

And dimwit.. i am no living dead... i Live..and i Live my life to the fullest...

 

The thing that i need to change in 2009 is

stop Blogging and Start Living...

as said by my dearest friend S from chennai... how i love u, my friend.. but are u crazy?? kindly get ur brain checked with a Neuro.. i will also fix u an appointment with my Psychiatrist at chennai..

doncha worry mate.. i ll help u to get cured soon...

  

A Sweet gesture Makes ur Day!!!

It was a surprise wen V called me yday evening.. V is a trainee student who did his internship under me a couple of months back.. his complaint was like he cudnt meet me wen he left as i am always busy running around.. (Ahem ahem)... he used to msg me now and then, but they were just forwards and i have no interest in them...

Suddenly, V asked when my bday was??...i said him that he missed it.. he was so sorry and conveyed his belated wishes... Now this kid asked for a party for a birthday he didnt wish on time... to pull his legs i pompously announced that party is given to only those who send bday gifts... Now this Kid was no one special and we hardly talk after that 1 week of internship..

so u have to imagine the surprise i got today morning.. seated on my desk table, today morning was perfectly wrapped beautiful perfume bottle... M crossed my cabin and wondered wat i was blushing abt early in the morning... !!!

He He HE!! d box still sits on my table.. i am not gonna take it home.. it will remain on my table to remind me that a small gesture can go long way in everyone's life....  to remind me to cast a smile to everyone i cross.. who knows it may make someone's day

Thanks V...

and yeah yeah i am gonna treat him to some Mughalai stuff this weekend!!

Dance pe Chance marle....

Last week was on hectic thing... i just came out of my hospital stay to know there was a dance competition organized at my Dance institute..Apart from  the various Lectures and training sessions i had imposed on myself, i had quite many presentations to make at the work front.. but this competition thingy got me going... i started dancing again much against everyone's wish... but wat u are good at and wat u love is never gonna kill u.. rite??

a few days into the practice, i realized i had no partner... my partner JD had left the class as soon as i had in the month of Dec... a couple of others had taken drop too.. just as i was starting to feel left out, Tarun cast me as d Emcee and tried lifting my spirits... yet i continued practicing with my troupe...

11th was d date and we hadnt finished the choreography till the morning of the competition date.. but slowly the concept evolved and was practiced well. i was at work and had to keep track of the situations thru phone... the program was scheduled for 5 o clock and i was still stuck at office till 4 pm... D rat literally scurried over to the Institute and plonked on the chair at around 5 30 pm.. d Program went fine with me messing up the names of the participants and trying to talk in Hindi.. mind u!! i faltered only a bit... but i am extremely sorry about the gender changes my fellow students had to go thru.. Hindi is one tricky language baba...

all well and we emerged victorious... Come on yaar!!! we were destined to win... a DJ party that followed was equally awesome..

Thats our batch with d Trophy..

But do u know why i am blah-blahing abt this event.. not because my batch won.. not because i presented in Hindi... but because of the change the batch had undergone...

Wen i joined the institute roughly some 4 months back, i realised the students hardly talked to each other.. most of them didnt even know each others name.. with me in the class how can this happen?.. so i promptly shouted one day that i wont dance if i am  not introduced to everyone... most of them were atleast 5-6 years younger than me but were shy enuf... eventually i tried to break ice with everyone and there was some smiles and hi-hellos btw the students... but still there was grouping and not much unity btw the whole batch... 
And u know wat is the situation now.. we had our first group outing yday and everyone piped into the get-together.. not one had "i have to go home", "MY father will be waiting" excuse...

Somewr during the practice sessions and d fights for approving a dance step everyone had united into a team... Now they look as a whole Team not as Rat, P and Y or the guys and girls team..

this is wat i call unity in diversity... & I'm loving it....

totally completely stupendously irritated.....

Yup sirre.. it is my mistake that  i took my room adjacent to yours... but thinking again u entered the near by apartment a good 3 months after me... may be i shud have shifted... DAmn!!! i havent seen ur face yet sirre.. but mind u i ll kick u d very first time i meet u next... i have a heavy 12 hr work schedule and not to mention another heavy workout and dance schedule.. i really really need the much sought after sleep, dimwit... and i DON'T want to hear u  brag abt ur escapades with ur girlfriend(s) to ur friends on mobile... i Don't want to hear all the fan(atical)cy things she does to you nor do i want hear the gory details of ur night-outs.. Spare me the horror, dumbster... And idiot the way u r shouting hard enuf on a STD call is a thing of PAST.... u maniac, STOP shouting or i am gonna stuff that dirty linen u leave at ur front door down ur throat...

And you there... wat exactly wr u thinking wen u followed me yday nite... cant u see i am already with a guy and not at all interested in you.. why honk on that horn intermittently when u damn well know neither the traffic will move on a red signal nor am i gonna turn around and give u a look... and horror of horrors, you dared to graze my feet with your front tire and ur stupid cancerous palm twice at the signal... hope that i dont see u again, Pervert... d abuse u heard was just a trailer.. wen kindered i can abuse n beat the daylights out of u...

Now i KNOW why i HATE men.... PERVERTS.... Grrrr...

Dressed to kill...

I just wonder how am i looking??? my stupid room mate is off to some musical concert.. like hell!! who in these days is interested in Classical music wen u got Iron Maiden Live In concert in 1 hour... ok accepted that i liked to sit in those Katcheris a couple of years back but that was because of my mom's compulsion... oh Crap!! the mirror had to crack just now, huh?? i am not able to see myself fully... i just hope this Purple tube top matches with my sneakers.... well i ll just add a dash of purple blush then may be he wont notice my ugly brown sneakers...

MAn!! i shud have got those sexy black dress Krathi was pointing out that day... now i wouldn't have to argue between these crunched up tees and suits... Ermm will it be too much if i add kajal to my eyes... Damn.. my room mate had to abandon me just now huh??

Hmmm.... but anyways he doesn't like Black... he made a weird expression that day on seeing Bobo wearing Black Pullovers... Ha!! no probs... good thing i don't have much black numbers... now i may not worry wen we go around the city.. i just hope he will ask me out.. atleast today... Come on!! i have dressed to kill yaar.. he has to note me atleast today...

how can any guy go without noticing me... Krathi says i have a figure to die for and Bobo always praises my rock star attitude.. so why does he doesn't even look at my direction... oh Bother!! may be he is just playing hard to get me... Come on! even i dont pay much attention to him... but any moron shud have understood my sly glances by now.. unless he is the King of Morons... Grrr

Hmm anyways....Sexy dress - Check... Matching Accessories - Check... Make up - Check... Co ordinated
Tote Bag - Check... Hair - In Place...Great Now i am off... Wait... Is this i love Iron Maiden logo visible enuf??? i do hope so..


I just wish atleast today i ll get to hear "So, Megha wat are u doing this Friday Nite??" from Chetan... see ya guys... i ll surely update u in an hour...

My love for u...

Hi Chetan...

           Feels sick to start with d usual "how do y'do" and "i'm well", when both us know each other damn well...

Remember the first time we met at yours brother's wedding.. i really thought u wr bridegroom and i was teasing my friend happily.. i felt sick wen u were constantly eyeing me... well that was till i came to know that u wr really d Best-man not the groom..

Remember the first time u asked me out... Mom was at wits end as u asked me in front of her... She actually came around, when my bro gave a green signal about u...

Remember the first time u sent me flowers on my bday.... it was a bunch of White roses and a single red rose in d middle... u explained that girls are many and i am d only one... Grinzzz.. but u didnt know that Chrysanthemums were my favorite flowers till then.. ur bouquet obviously changed my tastes...

Remember  the first time i asked u to take me out for dinner... Seriously i didnt know u hated Lebanese food.. u maintained a straight face all thru d meal... i hated myself wen u were taken ill d next day.. i promised myself never to go for Lebanese again...

Remember the time wen u proposed me... i was on the cloud nine and it took several whacks and kicks from my sister to stop grinning even hours after i accepted urs...

Remember the time we prepared for d marriage.. the numerous expedition with ur and my relatives to find the perfect wedding gown and suit... the various shopping to get everything needed for the marriage... the stolen kisses and hugs when our parents were busy with something else....

Remember the time u got the call for a sudden mission across d border... everyone asked u not to report back.. ur parents insisted that u get married first.. ur bro said he ll forward a medical certificate claiming u wr unwell.. but u said "the country needs me" and looked at me for support.. all i could do was smile, coz i know u loved fighting for the nation..

Remember the card u gave me wen u left..which says "will miss u"... Well,  i will treasure it for my lifetime coz thats my only proof of ur love for me, as now u r not there....

Love,
Megha

Love is...

Life was fun since Megha rejoined her dance classes...  

Tarun, her master was a cool guy who wanted to see everyone happy... even though most of her fellow batch mates were much younger to her, she was accepted by them... they made it a point to include her in everything...Chetan was the shy guy of the class… He smiled at her sometimes, but both stopped at that... neither of them attempted even to small talk... it was so obvious to others except them that they liked each other...

It was a Saturday and Tarun wanted everyone to have fun... he paired everyone to do Salsa dumping his regular routine... When he came to Megha, he smiled mischievously and shouted “Chetan, Lead Megha...."

Both of them were flustered... Megha was lost for words and Chetan was asking again & again "Can't i take Aayusi instead??"

The music was flowing and Megha was shivering when Chetan asked for her hand... Her nervousness made him strong and he said "Just look into my eyes and follow me... be cool, it will be alright..." To her, it was the difficult part, looking into his eyes... she squirmed when he held her waist and twirled her all around him... she just couldn’t manage when he insisted her to place her hands over his shoulders and let them rest on his elbows... She was so embarrassed that she, a trained dancer, couldn't execute a single step... Her Grace and composure just flew out of the window...  It was all apologies and funny smiles that passed btw them... 

They started to look forward to Saturdays, even though they hardly met eye to eye on other days... the clumsy pair of the class was perfecting themselves and Tarun made sure they were not disturbed by others... he loved this couple...  They hardly talked... they were contended with the smiles and holdings... long looks and sly smiles were their only communication... 

It was a Sunday, their off day when her vehicle stalled suddenly… there wasnt a soul nearby but u can’t expect anyone at 11 in the night… Megha had no clue how to repair a stalled vehicle and was getting miffed with time... Just as fate would choose, Chetan crossed her...

"Hey... What happened?"
"Erm... Hey... no idea… it stalled suddenly..."

Chetan sheepishly, "I have no clue about your model... Lemme walk you till your place..."

They walked in silence till her place.... she was cussing all way in her mind not to touch this vehicle again... he was distant all thru the walk...

"Ok... Thanks… bye for the company, Chetan..."
"Mmmmm... Megha... Do u like Devil’s Own or Kaapi Nirvana", Chetan grinned widely..

Several coffees and dinners later he proposed and she accepted...

Twelve years since their first dance.. they still Salsa every Saturday and true to that nite she never touched that vehicle again... 

He never let her....

Count ur blessings....

coz that surely will make u happy and optimistic....

i had my final follow up operation a couple of days back.. i woke up with a good feeling and also found my accident wound has miraculously healed itself overnight... none at d hospital believed that i was indeed d patient.. u c i was grinning widely and my operation was in a couple of hours... i didnt let d panic show and was happily joking with d ward boys and Nurses... actully most of them recognized me from my last visit.. :-)

all went fine... and my doctor's statement, after the operation, made me reach the ninth cloud in no time...

"Rat.. u r back to ur normal self.. u can even resuming dancing rite from today"

Grinzzz....

P.S # in case u r wondering, yes, i started dancing yday :-) grinzz... Rock on , i say....

To my Dearest...

Hi luv...

Hope this letter finds u in blooming health and heart... i can't say all's well at my side as it is not...

i dunno why but during my pre-teen days, i hated even to talk abt u... wen ever somebody mentioned abt my life partner they wr met by an angry stare from this rat... i always maintained that i ll never leave my parents... i promised to myself that wat-ever happened i wont fall in love... but somewr something changed..

during my teen years, i started seeing u evrywr and in everyone.. i searched for u, at highs and lows... i was a nerd then confined to my books and music... wen i didnt meet u , i tot u frequented Markets, Malls and theaters rather than bookstores and libraries.. i chided myself for this, but didnt venture into these places for the fear of being laughed at... i was unlucky, i said to myself...

wen i joined college, i really expected to meet u there... may be as a classmate or as college mate... initial college days saw me hiding behind books in library and nose deep into some online journals at the college net cafe.. but the ugly Mice transformed into a beautiful Rat sometime in btw... i had my own share of friends and gangs.. i started visiting Malls, Beaches, Markets and even Temples.. i even watched a movie almost after a decade... i engaged into stupid talks with fellow girls just in hope that i ll find u, all in vain...

my 4 years of college passed without meeting u..but there wasnt a single day that went without ur tots... whenever something happ gud or bad , i wished if only u wr there to share it with me... whenever i jumped with joy, i wanted u to pull me down from the ninth cloud.. whenever i shed a tear of worry,i hoped u ll hug me tight and say "everything ll be alright dear"...wen i won so many awards at college,state and national level i wished u wr somewr in d crowd proudly saying everyone who wud here that "She is my gal"... All in vain...

i graduated and joined this corporate world... the stress has huge as i joined the rat race to run up d corporate ladder... i did everything to reach my current position - work hard, stay up late, follow every word of my boss, out perform everyone, everything that i cud... but i forgot abt u.. i stopped searching for u... i boasted around proudly that being single rocks..

i think,i was wrong... coz since d past 3 months i am yearning for u... no i am not searching for u... i am just pining for u - to meet u - to hold ur hands - to say that "i love u"... i am just longing for u - to hug u - to beam at u - to say that "u really matter"... i am yearning for ur bear hug, wen there is a nip in air... i am craving for ur naughty kiss wen i do something mischievous...

i want u there wen i bitch abt all at work and world...i want u there and say "u look awesome" wen i get that new pair of shoe and boast off abt it... i want u there wen my parents are in town and want to see me in secure hands.. i want u there wen my friends hang out for a movie or dinner... i want u there wen i ball into my fetal position not knowing wat happ to me...

i promise, baby... i promise that i ll be there for u all time... i wont come btw u and ur cricket/soccer/rugby/hockey/tennis matches and nag u to pay attention to me.. i may even get u that bowl of chips... i wont demand u spend every day with me... u can continue ur boys day out like u do now..i wont get cross if u drink on special occasions, but spare me from cigarette smoke.. i just cant stand it, luv... i ll cook all ur fav dishes but dont ask me to wash ur dirty socks, we can fix a maid for that...

Forgive me, my love... forgive me if i am cross with u sometimes, just that my hormones are going awry and i dont feel like being myself sometimes... forgive me wen i demand to have that Chocolate icecream at midnight.. my craving for food strikes at oddest time, i ll rather be happy if u stock our fridge with these stuff... forgive me sweetest, if i forget to call up and say "Luv u" at mid-day.. just that i got caught up with this stupid deadline and forget even abt myself...

and wen we get kids, we will bring them up as a mixture of us both.. u can teach them all those video games and outdoor sports..  i ll surely make sure that they excel in dancing, painting and language... i ll even take ur help in all these... and wen they grow up and wanna leave us, i promise u dearest, i ll be by ur side wen u shed that little secret drop of tear...

DEarest... whrever u r, rest assured, coz i am here waiting for u... and i promise to be for there u wat ever happens... i ll get u those warm pads wen u are down with cold... i ll get u nice chilled tall glass of lemonade wen u return tired from office(if i am there at home)... and u need not be worried abt handling that odd relations who drop in now and then.. i ll manage them with my sweetest smile for sure , baby...

DArling.. enuf is enuf.. the distance is already damaging me.. come here.. come now...  and if u are reading this by any chance please drop in a mail... :-) missing u badly...

if only u know how much i miss u, u ll be here by my side this very second... i wait for u thru evry ebb and low...

Yours Forever,

D Rat...

P.S # to all those who want to say "Singles Rock" or anything to that effect, u r banned from this post.. run of somewr else.. :-)

My dirst fay of the yew near... Hic..

Dance till a drop - Check
Eat till a burp - Check
Dress like a glam doll - Check
Be seen with 2 super cute guys - Check
Be with ur best friend - Check
Call up every1 dear n near - Check
Hang out with ur gang - Check
Shop till u drop - Check
Get ur fav books - Check
Sleep off REAL Early - Check

he he he.. i had a blast and u???